To conceive and understand it all

So loud the hours after the impact

when it was considered

To conceive and understand it all,

and it was so loud ,

That everything we thought

brought us nothing but emptiness

It was so loud and so lost here,

when silence sadness

began to lived with us

You Get...teG uoY

You Get So Alone At Times That It Just Makes Sense. The sentence comes from a book of the same name by the US-American-German poet Charles Bukowski (1920-1994). An individual alone in a room. The above sentence has a personal autobiographical connection. Being alone is not always painful, but it can be complex and challenging. We may be in a phase of longing for company and change, but we must also ask ourselves whether the process of longing for and belonging to a social environment has begun or whether we are ultimately consciously avoiding any belonging or attachment to anyone. 

Dialogue with a building

IMAF 2022 International Multi-Art Festival September 9th – 11th, 2022 Odzaci and Novi Sad, Serbia.

At the Old Motel, Odzaci, Serbia on September 9th, 2022

This site-specific live performance was created as an" impro- visation" in this old, abandoned motel in Odzaci, Serbia. The original concept was not feasible in the building. I therefore decided to enter into a physical dialogue with the building by adding directly created sound and noise elements while walk- ing through the building. These sound and noise elements were created through body movements and objects

Dialogue

Dialogue is my first solo live performance which used audio elements.  First performed on March 12, 2022 at Soro-SorO#1 at De Bouwput, Amsterdam, The Netherlands. Curator Mariko Hori. Soro-sorO#1 was actually conceived as an experimental field. This performance is a hybrid work that also integrates sound and noise. Dialogue has several meanings at the same time. A) A dialogue that leads to no result B) A dialogue without content, ramblings without substance C) About the voices that I hear in my head and my hearing loss that sometimes prevents me from following a dialogue. Nevertheless, for me all three meanings are connected.

koud slova

With Meer and Kees de Vries (Utrecht, Netherlands). The video suggests that the conversation in the video is untranslatable and that it doesn't matter if you understand half of it or nothing at all. It's about the interaction itself. Words / Slova – are not that important. That's why you don't even need to understand the word word (Slova) itself. and that meaning comes not so much from the words themselves, but from a kind of “being” and interacting with one another, interpenetrating each other with waves of sound and action, and mentally exchanging our bodies to understand one another.

Text: Meer - Camera/Editing: Johannes C. Gerard - Performance:

Meer and Kees de Fries - "koud" =  means cold in Dutch "slova" =  means word in Russian